Saturday, July 25, 2009

Another Saturday

The week started off good with my birthday and all. LOL! Wednesday not good. The rest of the week just trying to get by. Now enjoying the weekend.

To those of you who have visited our house; yes, we do own a lawnmower and yes, Phil is out there putting it to good use! And much needed use, I might add.

Phil woke me up at 8 a.m. bringing in a bag of McDonald's biscuits and a Diet Coke. Yum! I called my uncle Edmund to wish him a happy belated birthday.

Trying to think of all the things I need to keep on top of during the next couple of months and hoping I don't fall behind. Another worry is Festival of Lights. Rosalind will not be able to be there to oversee FOL this year. Rick is now Vice President General of Midatlantic States for the SAR. They have many commitments and balls to attend during the holiday season. I don't envy them at all what with all that curtsying and such. :) That would get mighty tiresome.

My brother is supposed to come up soon with his two children. We would like to go white water rafting. I have never been before. I'm not a good swimmer. I know you have to wear a PFD. I think I'll be okay. I know Phil will love it! I wonder if Mom Urban would like to go? Hmmm. Will have to ask her. In addition to a PFD we would need to string a rope around her belly to keep her from flying out the boat in a gust of wind. She's such a tiny thing. I love her dearly.

Wonder what other dangerous activities we can plan in the next couple of weeks? giggle I think I'm too heavy for rock climbing. I doubt I could pull my own weight. Rollercoasters are out. Just going over a small bump with the truck makes my tummy jump. Can't handle it. :)

Friday, July 24, 2009

Relaxing at Home

Tuesday was my birthday and Wednesday was the visit with my surgical oncologist. A few new things to report. Will need more tests. Have already scheduled an appointment with my medical oncologist for next week for blood work. Not looking forward to my repeat mammogram next Monday morning. Yuck. Not worried about it. Just not looking forward to having these babies smashed to smithereens!

Every night this past week we have gone out to eat. It was a necessity since we were so busy every day. Tonight I'm planning to make meatloaf which is something I have not made in a very long time. Just hoping I can get every little bit of grease drained off the meat. I can't digest it.

Phil was home sick from work yesterday. It must have been from something he ate at the restaurant on Wednesday afternoon. I barely got to see him yesterday. I had a meeting at 1 p.m. and a DAR board meeting at 3. I didn't get home until 5.

It's been quiet here today. I'm waiting for my doctor's office to call back to schedule tests. Hopefully we can get those done next week and over with.

Nothing planned for the weekend which is really strange. Usually Phil is off training with Joe McDonald at Poor Man's Kennel or his friend Mike Groman from the Shenango chapter. I don't have anything going on. :)

Mom and dad went home to WV for aunt Dot's 70th birthday party. Ralph and Jessica are still on their honeymoon. I don't know what Joe and Chrystal have planned for the weekend. Joe probably has to work.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me!

HAHAHA I am laughing because I am still alive two years past my stage 3 colon cancer diagnosis at which Dr. P said I wouldn't live very long. I AM STILL HERE! Yes, ma'am, I am. Still alive and kicking. Well, I can't get my leg up too far but I can kick your shin if I try. giggle

Was woken up at 8 a.m. by Randy calling to wish me a happy birthday. Actually singing Happy Birthday which is something special because he does not sing. I haven't heard from Phil yet. He is probably thinking that I'm still asleep.

I didn't get past Chrystal and Joe's yesterday. Forgot they were at Idlewild Park with the kids. I will go over there today to give her the birthday gifts I bought. Her birthday was yesterday. Ooops! Just remembered that I forgot to call my uncle Edmund to wish him a happy birthday. His was also yesterday. Bad niece!

Dr. Bompiani had me on the torture device yesterday. The one that stretches the spine. He said something about axial compression or decompression. What? I know it pulled my pelvic area really bad. Today doesn't hurt quite so much.

My big visit with Dr. Moser is tomorrow. I look forward to seeing him every six months just wish it wasn't a doctor visit. He's such a good, kind person and has such a bright, smiling face that you can't help but be happy in his presence. I hope he walks through the door with a smile on his face. Anything less would mean bad news.

Phil is taking me to dinner tonight. I can't think of where to pick for dinner. We went to Texas Roadhouse on Saturday. That was nice. I still love Fridays maybe I will pick there. I can get Bruschetta Chicken. Yum. Better not have dessert. I already know Dr. M is going to complain about my weight gain! I can hear it now.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Mammogram

Westmoreland Hospital Imaging Dept called this morning. Seems the radiologist found things on my right breast. The radiologist thought they were calcifications which weren't there before but there was also something very small and since my breasts are very dense I need another mammogram. This next mammogram will be done with magnification and the radiologist will tell me at the hospital whether or not there's a problem.

It seems like when you get health problems they develop into more health problems or bigger problems. Last year during chemo I had a bad pap smear with abnormal cells so the gyn's office was upset and made me upset and I freaked out. My oncologist said it would have been caused from the chemo. I had a re-pap done six months later and it was fine.

I get PET scans every six months if there was a problem I am sure my oncologist's office would have called to see me right away. It's been a week since the scan.

Anyway, I'm wondering why the heck I can't be left alone? Don't go finding problems which aren't there. I have enough of that already. I don't need more.

I'm 47. My breasts have seen their share of action and they just aren't necessary anymore. No more breast feeding in my future. If I was to lose them I'd still be me minus the breasts. I lost most of my colon to cancer and everything still works just fine without a colostomy, thank God! I'm more worried about colon cancer coming back than finding a secondary cancer somewhere in my body.

I just wonder why doctors have to get all excited and upset me?? As Phil's friend Mira says, "Pusti May," which means leave me be. I think that's Croatian.

Anxiety

Does anyone else have social anxiety? Mine pops up when I’m in situations with a group of people I’m not familiar with.

Tonight we were invited over to my bosses house to watch the neighborhood fireworks. He didn’t tell me there would be a group of people. In the past there were only a few couples.

When we got there I counted about five couples or more, and all were his neighbors. No one that my husband and I knew personally only acquaintances.

I felt uncomfortable right away. I wasn’t myself. I wasn’t outgoing and talkative. I was very quiet and reserved and I hate it when I feel like this. Phil didn’t notice my discomfort. He can sit and talk with anyone. I envy that. I know it’s not up to him to fix me.

After an hour I asked if we could leave. I made my excuses to Sandy and scooted out the door. I didn’t even say goodbye to Randy. I just wanted to get away.

Phil said that I should probably talk to a therapist to find out why I feel like this since it’s not all the time. My stomach goes into knots where I almost feel I could throw up. I know it's insecurity. I was extremely shy growing up. Really, at 47 I thought I had outgrown this. Guess not.

I am also very anxious about the PET scan results. Worried about what may be in store come Wednesday's visit with Dr. Moser. I keep thinking "what if" my cancer is back? "What if" I have to start chemo again? Phil says no news is good news. Still I worry and am trying to keep up a positive outlook.

I don't want to go through that again. It was difficult enough the first time. Unless you've gone through it yourself you can't possibly understand what I'm saying.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

It's been a while since I wrote

The last five days are a blur now. Mom and dad came in on Thursday afternoon. We had dinner at home. Friday morning we picked up dad's tux then ran errands. The rehearsal was at 6 p.m. followed by dinner at 6:30 p.m. We had 26 attend the rehearsal dinner. Very nice meal.



Saturday morning mom and I went to have our hair done. My MaryKay rep came out to do our makeup.



Ralph's groomsmen came over around noon to get ready. Phil got home around 12:30 and we went to Foggy Mountain to meet the photographer at 1 p.m.



It rained for a short while prior to the wedding but did not rain while the wedding was taking place. It would have been a nightmare because the kids had an outdoor wedding. It was very beautiful. Instead of being rained on I got sunburned.



My uncle Gary and wife Joann Pack from WV came in. Uncle Edmund and wife Barbara Pack attended. Ralph and Ruth plus granddaughter Lindseigh came in from VA. My brother, his daughter Haley and her friend Cassie came in from MD.



Phil's mom, his brother Dave and wife MaryAnn, brother Brian and wife Michaelene and their children Alex and Victoria attended, as did Phil's uncle John and wife Lola Urban from Ligonier. Our friends Joe and Patsy Harbulak from the beagle club also attended.




Jessica was a beautiful bride. Ralph was a good looking groom. I was the proud momma.



Joe and Chrystal along with Chucky and Jassmine arrived in time to attend the wedding and reception. It was good to see them!



I think just about all of Jessica's family came to the wedding. It would have been nice if all of my family had attended. I am still hurt about that.



Sunday morning I made pancakes at home and invited Ralph and Ruth for breakfast. We had dinner at Mom Urban's and sandwiches later in the evening. Monday morning I got up early to drive into Pittsburgh for my six month PET scan. I had a mammogram on Tuesday. Everything is fine with them. My birthday is next Tuesday and my follow up with Dr. Moser (my surgical oncologist) is on Wednesday. Keep praying all is good.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Cleaning Lady

Wonder when that cleaning lady is ever going to show up? Sheesh!

I've spent all day cleaning. Me and Roomba. He was a big help but gosh daRn it his battery ran out too quick! We still have rooms to do. I managed to clean my parent's bedroom which used to be Ralph's room when he lived here. The office used to be Joe's room and it's one heck of a catch-all room. I know I can't get that room cleaned so I just shut the door. Hopefully no one will open the door.

I have to get something out for dinner. My parents will be here around 6. I still have to feed animals and I'm tired already. Thank goodness my back doesn't hurt today! Yipee!

I had my hair cut yesterday. I liked what Angie did with it. I bought a set of electric rollers and tried to get it to look like what she did but that didn't happen. Still, I like it.

I'm looking forward to the rehearsal dinner and meeting most of Jessica's family. My brother won't get here in time and my sister isn't coming to the wedding. My ex and his wife will be here. I need to call to make sure they know what time dinner is.

Phil's brother Brian and family won't be in until Saturday morning. Dave and MaryAnn live nearby and so does Phil's mom. I can't believe we will have all the Urbans together this weekend! Wow! My uncle Edmund and aunt Barbara will be over and my uncle Gary and aunt Joanne are coming up from WV. I don't think any of mom's family are coming in. So disappointing. Everyone had made plans.

Then again Joe and Chrystal won't be at the wedding. So disappointing.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

No Hay

I made it in to work at noon yesterday and stayed until 2 p.m. Randy was sick at home so I didn't ask him to get me hay.

I stopped to see Jess on my way home. I stayed until 3:30 and got home after 4 p.m. I brought Salt and Pepper out onto the driveway and tied them up so they could eat the brush. They stayed out until about 6:30 when Phil got home. They are getting much better about being led around.

I am down to four peeps now and a young banty chick. I would sure like to know what's eating them so I can kill it.

I finished the Dora outfit for Jassie and also did another one, too. The second one was pink fabric with butterflies on it that I thought was real cute when I bought it at Walmart.

I don't think Joe and Chrystal will be at Ralph and Jessica's wedding on Saturday. They left on a camping trip to WV and might not be back in time. Disappointed is an understatement! We'll see.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Sunbathing

Yesterday was such a beautiful day with nice warm weather (75 degrees) with no wind blowing. Decided to sunbathe in the backyard. Hey, we have no neighbors so no one can see me. After about an hour Phil tells me I am sunburned and to go inside. I was just beginning to enjoy the warmth and fall asleep which could have turned out lobster red disastrous especially with lots and lots of fabulous wedding pictures this coming weekend. Would not have been a good thing.

I tried my pretty plum dress on and it still fits which on one hand is a good thing and on the other a not so good thing because it means I haven't lost any weight. Definitely need a new foundation undergarment for this dress because my regular stuff shows. Phil suggested a camisole but that would not look right because the dress is not casual enough for that. It's not overly formal but it is pretty and it fits and I'm happy with that. It's also a good color for me. Now to figure out what to do with my hair. Ugg.

Phil called at 8 and woke me up. I am supposed to be getting ready for work. I even ran the bath water about half an hour ago. I'll go in for a couple of hours, pick up some hay for the goats and head home. Not working the rest of the week. I really do have to clean the house at some point. Thank goodness Roomba has a new battery and can work his little heart out. Just wish he could put clean sheets on the beds, put away clothes and hide the rest of the junk sitting around.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Mobile posting

I thought I was going to learn something new this evening but I couldn't get it right. giggle I tried to "mobile" post to my blog via my cell phone. I think I sent the text to BLOGGR because it didn't go through.

I saw a medium sized black bear this morning in Stahlstown as I was leaving the post office. That was about 10:43 a.m. It was running through a field on it's way to a stand of trees about two miles from my house. When I told Phil about him he said the bear was probably on it's way over to our house. I've lost a few chicks and hens in the last two weeks. Something's killing them. Not sure what it is. Of course it could be a durned old cat or a hawk.

I worked today. Didn't get in until about 11:15 and stayed until 3:30. Had to stop and get bags of dog food and a bag of corn for the goats. I pulled my back picking up the bags. The dog food weighs 44 lbs while the corn is 50 lbs. I came home and fed animals and Phil was pulling up in the driveway as I was finishing up. I quickly got ready and we went to Eat N Park for a nice dinner. We stopped by Gander Mountain on the way home. Because of detours, it was almost 9:00 when we got home. Phil suggested I get a hot bath to loosen my back up. I also took a Tylenol 3. I still have a few of those from my port removal surgery in January. They work well; take away the pain but don't leave me loopy. I only need to take one.

I hear fireworks going off nearby. Probably at Foggy Mountain Lodge or over at the people who live on Aleo Lake Road. We can watch them out the bedroom windows.

That's about it. Happy 233rd birthday America! Thank you Samuel Pack, Francis Farley, 2nd Lieut. Daniel Shumate, Rev. Josiah Meador and Martha Farris Gatliff (my ancestors) who helped fight for the Revolution or supplied aid to the cause.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Newest webpage

I wanted to post a link to my newest webpage here. I'm hoping the link works and you can view the page. It's available through the ColoRectal Cancer Alliance.